Wine is Cheaper than Therapy

(waffles, syrup, and a tall glass of milk)

Like so many others I know from time to time I have had questions about my past and what my future may hold. I have recently started to uncover answers about my past (like it or not) and at the same time have grown to increasingly become more frustrated with my lack of forseen future. I continue to recieve many "words of wisdom" including but not limited to "Your still young", "It is what it is", and my favorite "If you really want it bad enough you'll figure it out". These deep individuals are all people who love and care about me and truely like myself have no idea what the solution really is.

Like I mentioned before I have begun to piece together a past for which has been a fog in my life . A huge part of this discovery was locating and contacting my father (whom I have not seen since I was two) and have not only reunited with him but an entire family I never knew I had. As you can imagine this alone has been a revelation that one does NOT encounter everyday and for that...I need a BOTTLE of wine. But I feel I have taken this in stride and day by day I am more and more thankful I mustered up the courage to do so.

The first few weeks were filled with questions leading to questions. I feel happy with the peace I have made with my paternal side. Unfortunately this has lead me to more questions on my maternal side. I am beginning to understand that "It is what it is" basically answers many of those questions. However I am happy to have a two sided  family as crazy as they all are. God love them

Now when attempting to look forward, let's just say I am having a bit of writers block. I know three simple things. I want to be happy with what I am doing, I want to be able to step back and smile at my personal success, and somehow be able to make money doing this. I know I know, I started that sentence off with three SIMPLE steps so it should be a no brainer. Well kids I have no ideas and in case any of y'all forgot this April is NOT my 21st birthday. We're reaching poo or get off the pot time. As previously mentioned I have gone to friends and family for advice and have received no actual ideas but more a list of inspirational speeches and pep talks. All appreciated but little help in my future endeavors. So this is it I sit here mid afternoon with an empty plate of waffles and a blank future as of yet...