A mother's worry

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As a mother we worry about our children and everything around them. This can be a positive or negative for both the mother and the child. Today I woke like any other day and fed my daughter and got ready for the day. I laid her on her stomach in the living room for "tummy time". As I sat and watched her I was reminded of an article that had been sent to me from a "friend" when I was pregnant. The article was basically about signs that this particular researcher believed to be present with babies. As I sat there reviewing the paper over and over again. I found myself staring at my daughter attempting to roll over back and forth. Was she doing it "correctly"? I turned to my husband who like so many fathers out there reverted to a shoulder shrug and a "don't worry she is fine." As much as I wanted this to comfort me sadly...it did not. I continued the article which mentioned everything from how they lay at 5 days old, to how they roll over, to sitting up and even walking. All the while naming signs and examples of babies that they had observed both with and without autism. Now I know that a diagnosis would not be made for another 2-3 years (if needed at all). However I feel that because I am a planner I am suppose to do something, ANYTHING. But what do you do to plan for a disorder? Or for that matter what am I gonna do for any other life changing event in her life. Where was this thought revelation in all those baby books? This is the stuff I need to know about not how to push, what this or that is gonna look like, or better yet how to change a darn diaper. OK is it too early to have a glass of wine??? I need my therapy.....